This is the script I used for Episode 42, and instead of deleting it, I wanted to post it here. I go off-script (as usual) from this, but it still gets to the point I feel.
I’ve edited it a bit to make it a bit more readable for you, and if you want more of these for future solocast episodes, let me know and I’ll keep posting them here.
Recently, I was in a meeting where I was asked about my role as a ‘Guru‘ back at O2. I was asked about what it was like, what my role entailed, and the question that always, always appears when I’m asked about it;
I read Jeff Perry’s post today about his fears and mental health perspective all in one link here.
I also watched the film ‘Bohemian Rhapsody‘ today, and I haven’t stopped thinking about both all day.
Here’s why.
It’s been a long three weeks.
Three weeks since I last had the 10.5 iPad, and I’ve come across so many issues when I had to use my MacBook Air during this time.
But last week, my new iPad Pro arrived. The 12.9″ 256GB Cellular model.
Before we continue, the below will be some impressions on how I use the iPad, and how the new features have benefitted me. The last part will be two incidents I’ve been running into, and I wanted to show the perspectives of both and my wishes for them.
Let’s go.
In April of 2017 I experienced a major anxiety attack in the middle of a shift in the job I was in at the time.
Panics, incoherent sentences spoken, and images from the mind full of the worst case scenarios would all play a part from start to finish of this period.
For the next two weeks, I would finish the day job and go straight back to the flat, and to bed, and I wouldn’t eat until 11PM, forcing something down.
This ended when I snapped out of this by talking to a few people, and re-shaping how I was planning certain things.
There’s been a couple of moments since then where I’ve felt some of these thoughts try to rise to the surface again, but I’ve had coping mechanisms to deal with these and they disappear.
It came close to coming back fully yesterday, but again, it subsided. I wanted to talk about that.