I’ve been freelancing full time since the start of this month, but doing it as a thing for almost 2 years now.
You learn things about yourself fast once you decide to do something you enjoy full time. I’ve learnt a few things already since the 1st October, but one thing that stands out more than the rest are deadlines.
I’ve had a few commissions that I’ve been finishing off these last ten days, but they’re commissions that have been drafts for a month, because they’ve been the ‘By all means finish it when you can’.
I’ve come to realise I really don’t want that anymore.
To those who are waiting for my copy, regardless of stating there’s no deadline and to take my time, I feel like i owe an apology regardless. No idea why, but take it.
Friends who know me in person I’m sure would gasp at that previous paragraph there.
I want a date to work towards, to hone at, to improve to. Some don’t. I was watching ‘The Defiant Ones’, last week again, and yet another line struck me, and this time it was Dr. Dre.
‘I don’t work towards deadlines, you can’t be creative when there’s deadlines. You can’t be spontaneous and realise there’s one other thing you can add to this thing you’re doing. You feel restrictive when there’s deadlines.’
But to me, I like having them. It makes me focus, and I like being organised up to a point, and deadlines is one of them. It makes you think that there’s an end point, and you’ve got time for that piece to make it the best you can be.
Without one, the piece is just another Duke Nukem Forever / Half Life 3 project to me.
‘It will be done when its done’.
Well, in the future, it will be done when the deadline says as far as I’m concerned.
Any commissions in the future, I will straight up ask for a deadline, otherwise, expect it in two months. Because it’s simply how my mind works. I can’t explain it any other way.
But also, I love that I’m writing when I want, how I want, and to have deadlines for something I love doing, I do not mind.
When it’s something you love to do, you’ll make sure it’s the best it can be, regardless of when it’s in for.